i think what my problem is, is that i think too much about other people. like, how long other people have worked out vs how long ive worked out or how much other people have lost vs how much ive lost. and then i lose focus and just get down and lose my motivation to even start watching what i eat or start working out because i feel like its too late for me to start working out and its like no, nobody cares. nobody can control me but me so i just dont understand how i can let something as small as that stop me. idk i just psych myself out and i never get started. but not this time. i think im learning to forget what other people think/say and just worry about me, wich is what i should have been doing instead of getting fat. but i think im ready.
i dont know if this will make sense to anybody but at least i understand me lol
WOOOH! So today I am fasting. I started last night at exaclty 12pm and i have done nothing more than drink water and its already 6:13 pm!! :D I just finished doing 30 minutes of yoga and took a shower so i feel supper accomplished ^.^
On the negative side, I feel really nauseous and dizzy so I dont think this whole fasting thing really is gonna work out for me. I’d rather eat smaller portions and skip meals than eat NOTHING all day.
its 6pm, almost 7, all I’ve eaten today is 2 small bags of hotcheetos, a packet of like 9 chocolate chip cookies, a bottle of water, and a 10 piece chicken nugget meal from mcdonalds ;/
im gonna go walk with my sister for a good 40min-1hr :)) wich is good! but my stomach is already rumbling ugh i refuse to eat or consume anything else tonight besides water. baby jesus help me.
LOL my friend always brags about the fact that she has huge boobs and kinda makes fun of me for having pretty small ones, but she doesn’t know that basically everyone refers to her as ‘big tits’ behind her back and that we all comment on how her boobs make her look fat big time lmao i just love how some people are completely oblivious to how ignorant they really are.
2 more days and hopefully i can finally start going to the gym *crosses fingers* :D
im so frustrated by everything. honestly, i feel like nothing good ever happens to me and my friends and family have all the options they could ever want for anything. ugh.